hi ho hi ho its off to work we go

If I haven't said it...I love my job...
I am the product of a work consolidation that no one wanted to happen but me...23 of us came together and after the departure of  waves of folks and the hiring of new folks we are at 19.  We have been together five years now...I left a job that everyone envied but it was a job that kept me away from home three days of the week..and I missed my home...I was also stuck..I was a woman among a group of men...you can make conclusions and you would be right.  There was nowhere for me to go.

So, I left and joined a group of people who valued my opinion and where I was allowed to contribute to the conversation...and I LOVE it...I was lucky enough to be in on the establishment of a new agency within state government and an agency that was set up to be self sufficient....I love a challenge.

And the job is high tempo and fast paced and I am constantly busy.  I am also around a wonderful group of people who took care of me through this tough time in my life.  I spent months sitting at my desk and doing NO work...I was in a daze, I was numb, I kept my door shut and it took months before I even felt like doing the job that I loved...but thank goodness I have it...it keeps me busy...so busy during the day I don't have time to think.  Today was one of those crazy, wacky days that I thrive on.

And the people I came in contact through my job led me in directions I needed to go...I heard today one of them is retiring...after the divorce I had to sit down with our payroll guy and he took my hand and walked me through what I needed to do to get Mark off my insurance, off as my beneficiary...and all the tons of paperwork I had to do to wipe him out of my life.  I cried and he gave me tissues...I sobbed and he took his time...it was tough...and today I thanked him for being so gentle with me at that emotional time.

I know you've heard the line... God puts people in your life when you need them...some for a day...some for a year...and some for a lifetime...and I have watched as my life went on and the people I needed at that time  faded from it...it is pretty amazing when you think of it...how God knows just what you need right at that moment...I am so grateful for all of the people that have helped me through these past couple of years...

It is a great question to ponder...Does everyone we come in contact with have a purpose by God to be in our life?  Does he place them each carefully where we need them?  What about the evil people?  Do they have a purpose too? They definitely teach us something...

What if we miss someone put there just for us?..what if we walk past and don't bother to speak....and we miss the opportunity?

What do you think?  Has it happened to you?

mouse wars

I talk all of the time about the mouse wars that start at my house with the beginning of the cold weather and may end at spring time...this year in the early months...it was hell...i was battling and they were winning...when I opened my vanity in the bathroom and there was one spread eagle and snoozing on my towels...I knew it was time to start the annihilation of these beasts!

 I recently forgot about the trap under my vanity and the other night the dogs were standing outside that bedroom door staring..I opened the door and they headed straight to the bathroom and stared at the vanity...there was a mouse in the trap...over this winter I killed a total of at least 8 mice.

They freak me out!!  I was on the hunt...they did me wrong...when I reached into the dog treats and there was one so full of dog biscuit he couldn't move, I knew I had been invaded.  I had to go on the offensive.

Just like those mice I consider my relationship with Mark war right now...but why?
Hebrews 10:30 tell us:
For we know him who said, "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," and again, "The Lord will judge his people."
Who do I think I am judging Mark?  Do I think God won't be hard enough on him? Do I think God will be too soft? Do I think I am better than God? I know I don't see the big picture and God does.

Proverbs 20:22 tell us:  Don't say, "I will get even for this wrong." Wait for the LORD to handle the matter.  That should bring me great peace...God will take care of this.  Let him do his job...Move on...judgement is the work of the Lord not the work of Kim McHenry.  ...step out of the way and let him do his work...let him handle it...

God thank you for loving me enough to take on the tough jobs...the ones I don't need to handle.  Help me to realize which are not my jobs to handle.
Amen and Amen.

those voices in my head!

We always laugh at work about those little voices in our head...jokingly...but I am here to tell you there are really voices! I remember Cassell years ago doing a sermon about being a Christian and he said, "Once a Christian, you know when you are doing something wrong because it just doesn't feel right and you hear that voice that says 'what are you doing?'  Things are never the same! You can't get rid of those voices once you've accepted Christ!!"...
During this year I have spent many days and nights on my knees praying...I have always felt closer to God on my knees...maybe it is that humbling thing...during those times of prayer I went from one extreme to another...I prayed for my husband and my life back to kill the SOB (something with fire and brimstone would be good)!! I am sure God loved those prayers!! Thank goodness he is a forgiving God!! But remember those little voices?? They were always the same and always said the same thing..."Step away!! Know I am God and let me do my work"..."trust me"....well,  if you know me I am a little controlling and all trust was just blown out of the water due to a cheating husband...and it is hard to give up that control and really trust someone else.  I know best...but when you are at your lowest you really learn the most...that's when I learned to give it up and know that he is God... I stepped away from everything related to Mark...I cleaned out my house of all things Mark...I need to trust the Lord and not me...looking at that emotional roller coaster i was on that may have been a really really good idea!  As I cleaned out my house I also cleaned out myself...I stopped all contact with my family-in-law which was a really hard thing to do...but started to slowly heal.  Wow! He does know what he is talking about!!
"Be still and know that I am God" Psalm 46:10...that be still thing is a whole other story!!