that's why its called god moments

I had one again!
That moment when you know you are in the presence of God.  As if he was standing right there speaking to you!

I have been struggling lately. 

This morning...Saturday...the leader of the confirmation retreat, Ms Val took us in the sanctuary and told us to go to our own space within...find some place to spend time with God...I laid down on the last pew.  She walked us through a relaxation exercise and then told us to spend the next five minutes talking to God. 

I laid there and told God about my struggle.  How all I have ever asked for through all of this was my husband back, my life back, that the devil leave Mark and the temptation be removed from him.  Nothing has happened and I have struggled with that.  I thought I had faith that would move mountains....(how pious of me!!!)

He let me have it, he yelled at me....no nice God here!  He was pissed...He told me this was his war...the age old war between he and Satan.  There were two souls at battle and this was his war to fight.  All along whenever I would break down (over the past two years) and pray this same thing....I would hear God say...step back..let me do my work...whenever I would get ready to send a text or a card to Mark...I would hear God say...I have work to do STOP....and I thought I had...Guess I was once again wrong.

So today God yelled at me and told me to mind my own business...the last thing I heard him say was....back away...Be still and know I am God...

about that time Ms. Val called us to sit up or pay attention...she asked if anyone had heard anything...none of the kids said a word...

she said...I heard something...God told me to "Be still and know I am God." 

GOD MOMENT!!...I was being reassured God was present and  in that place.  God listened to me.  God is telling me to back off...and let him do what he has to do.

I don't have to be told twice. 

be still and listen

I have been struggling this week.  It has been a tough week.  I blame the weather.  My mood has fit the rainy, dreary, foggy, blah weather.  I have also been struggling with a bad feeling about my church.  If you read this you know how important my church is to me.  Last weekend I was on a roll, running my mouth (to a few people) huffing and puffing!  My voice of reason is always my friend Lora who listened to this huffing.

She told me to be still and listen.  She sent me scripture that said the same thing.  I thought I had been still and I thought I had listened.   But maybe I missed something!

Last night as I was doing my bible study guess what scripture I came upon...God telling Elijah in the book of Kings to go to a cave "be still and listen and know I am God."  This morning I am changing my sheets which I do every Saturday and I find one of those little scripture cards in my bed....the prayer reads:
"Dear God, we know you do still speak to us.  Help us to be still and know what you are trying to tell us."

The scripture on the back of the card was Exodus 33:14 "My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest."

So maybe I better stop that huffing and puffing...be still and listen and God will give me rest from the struggles I've been having...what do you think?

When you are a mouth it is hard to be quiet.  I remember when Aslam asked me to take on the duties of Children's Ministry, I told him...I am used to being in charge...I am bossy...I am mouthy...and he said..."I think God is telling you, you may need this!" He was right and God was right...I needed that.

So let me listen again...Be still and listen.