it isn't what it seems

This divorce and adultry has had some wierd consequesnces for me... i think and believe nothing is what it seems...there are motives to everything...nothing is done just because.

I see two people together in a parking lot and I think...they are having an affair...
I see two people not talking at dinner...he is cheating on her...
I see a man in a sports car and "Born to be Wild" blasting out of radio and I think...mid-life crisis
I see a single man and I now look immediatly for their wedding ring or ring line (Mark never wore one...that should have told me something! Wonder if Kathy can get him to wear one)
I see these pictures on e-harmony and think...what do men think?  A few extra pounds can be seen in your profile picture.

The internet has a language all of its own!
What's with these online profile names? and all these Harley references?
I read in the book "Still Hot"
If his profile says:
I'm looking for my soul mate:   He's been out there for a long time, and will remain there...
If it says would like a non-demanding woman:  He has intimacy issues.
I'm semi-retired:  He occasionaly gets up out of the barcalounger to look through his Start Your Own Business book shelf.
I quit the rat race:  He spends his days in an overstuffed armchair at Barnes and Noble reading Hustler for free.
He describes his body type as "above average":  He only looks in the mirror on the medicine cabinet.
He says I've been told I am handsome:  Yea by his mom!

Divorce does crazy things to you...and one is not believing a word anyone says, or trusting anyone, wanting to know everything about someone just to make sure he has never hurt another woman.
I know God tells us not to judge others...but really, some men...
I know God tells us to trust him with our own heart, lean not on our own smarts...

 God is a man (maybe a man) I can trust in...

mouse wars

I talk all of the time about the mouse wars that start at my house with the beginning of the cold weather and may end at spring time...this year in the early months...it was hell...i was battling and they were winning...when I opened my vanity in the bathroom and there was one spread eagle and snoozing on my towels...I knew it was time to start the annihilation of these beasts!

 I recently forgot about the trap under my vanity and the other night the dogs were standing outside that bedroom door staring..I opened the door and they headed straight to the bathroom and stared at the vanity...there was a mouse in the trap...over this winter I killed a total of at least 8 mice.

They freak me out!!  I was on the hunt...they did me wrong...when I reached into the dog treats and there was one so full of dog biscuit he couldn't move, I knew I had been invaded.  I had to go on the offensive.

Just like those mice I consider my relationship with Mark war right now...but why?
Hebrews 10:30 tell us:
For we know him who said, "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," and again, "The Lord will judge his people."
Who do I think I am judging Mark?  Do I think God won't be hard enough on him? Do I think God will be too soft? Do I think I am better than God? I know I don't see the big picture and God does.

Proverbs 20:22 tell us:  Don't say, "I will get even for this wrong." Wait for the LORD to handle the matter.  That should bring me great peace...God will take care of this.  Let him do his job...Move on...judgement is the work of the Lord not the work of Kim McHenry.  ...step out of the way and let him do his work...let him handle it...

God thank you for loving me enough to take on the tough jobs...the ones I don't need to handle.  Help me to realize which are not my jobs to handle.
Amen and Amen.