Oh boy...turned on AC for the first time of the season and no AC...it is hot...inside and outside...
nothing cool about today...
We spent most of the day yesterday, Memorial Day Monday outside...in the sprinkler hooked up to the hose...cut grass and Taylor and I washed cars.YUK!! I was hot and sticky!
I came in at one point yesterday and one of the dogs was standing in front of the fan...that should tell you something. None of them wanted to step out the door...it was pee fast and get back inside.
So this is what hell will be like...no thank you...I would not be able to stand this for an eternity...no way!!
So better turn this life in the right direction and do as I am told...
There is that new book out that makes hell sound OK...everyone is talking about it...well let me tell you...living in perpetual summer with no AC...I don't have to be told twice.
My life is changing right NOW!!!
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
what just happened?
i hate when I punch a button on my computer while writing this blog and suddenly everything I've written disappears....I don't understand...what did I just do? What just happened? Where are these rules? Who made up these things it does? Why did that just happen?
Where is it written that it will do this if you do this? I just don't get it...
Sort of like life...what did I do to get this? Why did this happen? What are the rules now? Who made this thing up? Soon it will be another year that has come and gone since my discovery of Mark's unfaithfulness. So much has happened in this past year...Mark has re-married, the kids are leaving, I have a new grandbaby and I am dating.
I am amazed how it still hangs out there...how it is still there?...I had a long talk a few weeks ago with an older woman in our congregation...who recently lost her husband...she talked about how hard it has been and then she looked at me and said..it must be harder for you because he isn't gone...
Oh but he is...then there are all the new rules...with dating...and how that whole thing works....that is another thing I don't get...I've made a decision there too...it is what it is...I am going to take it as it comes...one day at a time....I have been screwed over once and there is no way I want to be screwed over again...what you see is what you get...no pretense at all.
I've picked up several books that answer the questions and tells you the new rules...but come on...it isn't like that...no way...so I am just going to go with the flow...what happens happens...we'll see where it leads...no rules...play it as it comes...I'll let you know how that goes!!!
Where is it written that it will do this if you do this? I just don't get it...
Sort of like life...what did I do to get this? Why did this happen? What are the rules now? Who made this thing up? Soon it will be another year that has come and gone since my discovery of Mark's unfaithfulness. So much has happened in this past year...Mark has re-married, the kids are leaving, I have a new grandbaby and I am dating.
I am amazed how it still hangs out there...how it is still there?...I had a long talk a few weeks ago with an older woman in our congregation...who recently lost her husband...she talked about how hard it has been and then she looked at me and said..it must be harder for you because he isn't gone...
Oh but he is...then there are all the new rules...with dating...and how that whole thing works....that is another thing I don't get...I've made a decision there too...it is what it is...I am going to take it as it comes...one day at a time....I have been screwed over once and there is no way I want to be screwed over again...what you see is what you get...no pretense at all.
I've picked up several books that answer the questions and tells you the new rules...but come on...it isn't like that...no way...so I am just going to go with the flow...what happens happens...we'll see where it leads...no rules...play it as it comes...I'll let you know how that goes!!!
granny panties
In all of the divorce books you read it tells you to dump the granny panties and buy yourself new sexier underwear....so I went out and bought some new sexier underwear...they are not as comfortable as grannies!! And who had the idea for a thong??? I bought new bras that push you up and pop them out there!!! OK my boys will stop reading about now!!!
You've heard the phrase put on your big girl panties and do it...well, yesterday I pulled up my big girl panties, the sexier ones of course...and tackled one of my fears....I took the tractor up on top my roof...for the first time this summer...and cut the grass there.
I was going up the back hill all summer and I thought...what's the difference? It is just a little steeper is all...
So, I sucked it up....pulled them up...pushed them out and did it!! Straight up the hill...I thought I would do a little at a time till I got the entire thing done...I am so proud of myself!!! It felt wonderful...that ol self confidence is sitting up there pretty high right now!!
God tells us to "fear not" and I was fearing...
God doesn't say anything about panties!
You've heard the phrase put on your big girl panties and do it...well, yesterday I pulled up my big girl panties, the sexier ones of course...and tackled one of my fears....I took the tractor up on top my roof...for the first time this summer...and cut the grass there.
I was going up the back hill all summer and I thought...what's the difference? It is just a little steeper is all...
So, I sucked it up....pulled them up...pushed them out and did it!! Straight up the hill...I thought I would do a little at a time till I got the entire thing done...I am so proud of myself!!! It felt wonderful...that ol self confidence is sitting up there pretty high right now!!
God tells us to "fear not" and I was fearing...
God doesn't say anything about panties!
Sunday, May 29, 2011
fun..plain ol fun
Today has been a day of plain ol good fun! It is Sunday so we went to church...but since we got home...the kids are having a ball. They hooked up the sprinkler and they have been wet all afternoon. The last time I looked out they were pulling up worms and sitting on the sidewalk, soaking wet with dirt and worms between them.
As an adult, I had to be busy...cutting grass...and sweeping porches...but then it was like...what the heck..why am I not checking out worms, too.
Sometimes we take ourselves much too serious...we need to STOP and run in the water and play in the dirt. We are much too uppity and take ourselves much too serious...so take some time today...this day of REST...and enjoy being outside....with the kids or the dogs and just have some fun...how long has it been since you ran through a sprinkler...get out there and turn on some water...and laugh and enjoy!!
I am sure somewhere in scripture it talks about just enjoying life...enjoying the joy God has given us.
Wait...try this one...
Proverbs 15:13 - "A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit." (NIV)
OK forget that heartache thing...but remember a happy heart makes the face cheerful!! Go have some fun...I can not believe that God is a stick in the mud!!
Saturday, May 28, 2011
the lotus flower
Thank you to my very special niece for this beautiful thought.
(Buddhist value: Like a lotus flower that grows out of the mud and blossoms above the muddy water surface, we can rise above our defilements and sufferings of life)Imagine that you are a lotus seed buried beneath a muddy lotus pond. There is mud all around you, and you can feel them clearly. Above you, above this muddy pool of dirt, mud and filth, are sunshine and air. You are not disheartened as you begin your journey towards the surface.
With a determined heart, you begin to wiggle in the earth. You grow roots deep, deep into the mud. Your little stem grows up slowly. Suddenly, "pop" you are out of the mud! Your stem grows higher and higher, taller and taller. You rise up slowly, fighting against the muddy water. All of a sudden, you are out of the muddy pond! You reach up towards the warm sun, shining down on you.
Your lotus bud begins to grow on top of your stem. It expands and grows larger and larger, finally bursting into full bloom. A white lotus flower. You stand beautifully above the muddy water, not dirtied by the mud from which you grow. You are white, fragrant and beautiful.
Everyone who saw you marvelled at your beauty! Your determination to grow out of the muddy pond reminds them of your strength. We may have defilements but we all have the potential of growing out of our defilements and achieving wisdom.
You are a beautiful white lotus flower, and your role is to remind people to rise above their defilements and sufferings, just as you are arising above the muddy water and not dirtied by the mud from which you grow.
(Buddhist value: Like a lotus flower that grows out of the mud and blossoms above the muddy water surface, we can rise above our defilements and sufferings of life)Imagine that you are a lotus seed buried beneath a muddy lotus pond. There is mud all around you, and you can feel them clearly. Above you, above this muddy pool of dirt, mud and filth, are sunshine and air. You are not disheartened as you begin your journey towards the surface.
With a determined heart, you begin to wiggle in the earth. You grow roots deep, deep into the mud. Your little stem grows up slowly. Suddenly, "pop" you are out of the mud! Your stem grows higher and higher, taller and taller. You rise up slowly, fighting against the muddy water. All of a sudden, you are out of the muddy pond! You reach up towards the warm sun, shining down on you.
Your lotus bud begins to grow on top of your stem. It expands and grows larger and larger, finally bursting into full bloom. A white lotus flower. You stand beautifully above the muddy water, not dirtied by the mud from which you grow. You are white, fragrant and beautiful.
Everyone who saw you marvelled at your beauty! Your determination to grow out of the muddy pond reminds them of your strength. We may have defilements but we all have the potential of growing out of our defilements and achieving wisdom.
You are a beautiful white lotus flower, and your role is to remind people to rise above their defilements and sufferings, just as you are arising above the muddy water and not dirtied by the mud from which you grow.
self promotion
This is blatant self promotion...but check it out!
http://www.wsaz.com/news/headlines/West_Virginia_Urging_Employees_to_Use_Rideshare_Program_122701364.html
my carpool group was featured on a local tv station...
http://www.wsaz.com/news/headlines/West_Virginia_Urging_Employees_to_Use_Rideshare_Program_122701364.html
my carpool group was featured on a local tv station...
Friday, May 27, 2011
hip bones
As I stood outside the other day with my hands on my hips screaming at the dogs about something... I made an amazing discovery. I felt my hip bones....for the first time in a very long time. As a matter of fact, I thought something was wrong...there was something moving under my skin that I didn't recognize...something has come apart...I just knew it!
Then I realized what they were...I have hip bones...and they weren't where I thought they were!!...they are up much higher!!...wonder what that means!
Our bodies are pretty amazing...they are so well conceived...they are a work of God...there is no doubt..it all comes together in perfection (whether we like our bodies or not). One part relies on the other...no part is better than the other. 1 Corinthians 12 talks about how it takes all of those parts of the body, by stating:
Even so the body is not made up of one part but of many.
There are parts of our bodies that get us in trouble...no...not that! I'm thinking of our mouths...and if you are like me...you just can't keep it shut!! As I've gotten older...I realize you must think before you speak...you must chose words carefully. I hate to hurt other people and I hate to stir up stuff. I will re-read an email a zillion times to make sure it is worded carefully...this blog is about the only place I let it loose and say whatever!!
Solomon, could ask God for anything and he asked for wisdom. The wisdom to know the right thing to say at the right time....I ask for the same thing...the wisdom to make right choices and say right things...how did I get from hip bones to wisdom??? Rabbit trail...I'm go off on one..Craig you aren't the only one!
Be wise today...think before you speak, ask God for wisdom...and for fun find your hipbones...see what they're connected to!!
Then I realized what they were...I have hip bones...and they weren't where I thought they were!!...they are up much higher!!...wonder what that means!
Our bodies are pretty amazing...they are so well conceived...they are a work of God...there is no doubt..it all comes together in perfection (whether we like our bodies or not). One part relies on the other...no part is better than the other. 1 Corinthians 12 talks about how it takes all of those parts of the body, by stating:
Even so the body is not made up of one part but of many.
There are parts of our bodies that get us in trouble...no...not that! I'm thinking of our mouths...and if you are like me...you just can't keep it shut!! As I've gotten older...I realize you must think before you speak...you must chose words carefully. I hate to hurt other people and I hate to stir up stuff. I will re-read an email a zillion times to make sure it is worded carefully...this blog is about the only place I let it loose and say whatever!!
Solomon, could ask God for anything and he asked for wisdom. The wisdom to know the right thing to say at the right time....I ask for the same thing...the wisdom to make right choices and say right things...how did I get from hip bones to wisdom??? Rabbit trail...I'm go off on one..Craig you aren't the only one!
Be wise today...think before you speak, ask God for wisdom...and for fun find your hipbones...see what they're connected to!!
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